Well, after a long break I'm back!
I'm not going to make any silly resolution that I'll post more frequently, because I probably wouldn't follow through.
What might my resolutions be, you ask? I have one, and it's just for kicks. I'm going to become notorious as the girl with the red bow.
There's this great little red bow that I wore for the burlesque show in the summer. Recently I've started wearing it when I go to shows, gigs and even just karaoke. It makes it easy for people to find me, and I look cute to boot. So why not? Why not get myself out there using something that's a little eye catching and easy to remember?
After reflecting on the past year I do have some things that I'm going to keep more in mind as I go about this next year. Not resolutions, persay. Not habits. More like words and ideas to live by. Things I've learned in the past year that I want to apply to my life in the upcoming one.
1) Be thankful.
2) You are never alone.
3) Hard work ALWAYS pays off.
4) Everyone has a distinctly different point of view.
4) Your attitude has a direct correlation with your happiness.
5) You create your life. You decide WHAT gets to affect you and WHO gets to affect you and HOW it's going to affect you. Period. Don't blame other people. Hold yourself accountable.
Also after reflecting, I realized that the single most simultaneously true and awful thing I've heard about myself this is year is: "You've got the talent, but you obviously lack the discipline." This was said by my 2D Design prof during my evaluation this past October. It's really stuck with me. Although apparently it didn't stick enough, or in a way to make any sort of impact on my work ethic, because said work ethic continued to diminish as I reached the end of term.
Due to all of this, I seriously need to remember the fact that just because I have grasped the knowledge I'm supposed to, does not mean that my professors know I have grasped that knowledge. In order to get the marks, I have to prove to them that I know what I'm talking about. This, unfortunately, only comes through actually doing the damn work. A connection, which since grade school, has eluded me. I don't know if that makes me stupid or if my brain just functions differently. Now I'm getting it though, so don't be hatin'.
That's probably the most negative thing that I will turn into a positive this coming year.
Now for the good things:
I have realized that from the beginning 2011 was nothing I could have possibly expected it was going to be. It brought a lot of new people, experiences and responsibilities. In 2011 I spent a lot of time figuring myself out, probably due to the fact that it's the longest I've been single since first year. I'm continuing to find and shape passions that are dear to my heart.
Pertaining to that, I guess you could say I do have some goals for the year.
I would like to spend more time exploring my field of photography. I seem to have lost the passion I once had for it. I got really discouraged. Right now I just know that I need to work harder at it to find the results I want.
I want to spend as much time as possible in both the theatre and film communities of Fredericton. I just started to dip into it this past summer and I'd love to explore it more. This fall I've been hindered by school. I feel that this will have to continue to take a back seat to school until late April because of the goals I have set for myself there. Now film... film was never something I saw myself being passionate about. I think it may come from the fact that it combines things I love about both photography and theatre.
And by golly, you know what? I think it's the people. Gosh, I think I must just like the people involved in such things. Creative minds, you know? We just get each other. Epiphany.
That's it, that's all. I'll be back at some point.
-K
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